My last shed tears
one of the + point in having an unpopular blog is that you can actually write and post whatever you want without having to worry about anything.is simply expressing myself. I dont have to worry about getting ISAed , i dont have to worry about offending people and i dont have to worry about YOU.
most of us have alot of unforgetful memories throughout our life, one of my thats still vivid in my memory is my last shed tears up today. Well it happened quite some time ago while i still wore white pants to school.
whats the reason i shed my tears ? is love of course, i mean what else can really make a boy cry if not because of love ? well back then as who I am, i fall in love and get out of love quite easily.Is not that I am not loyal of something it just that I learn to let go easily so I wouldnt get hurt so much, and please dont be wrong to assume that i am a playboy.I am definately mean it when I say I Love You.
ok lets start my romantic story that well known but unheard by many, back then I bump into this girl, a cute and petite girl i would say, we sort of met through school activities, she caught my eyes the first time I really see her. After our first meeting we sort of bump into each other few times after that, being in a small island I manage to get her contact, after that I sort of sms and call her regularly but as a friend of course.
For you guys info, she was a lesbian when I first knew her. Someone who seriously in love with her lesbian partner. Oh yea she was sort of attached with another girl at that time. After a few meetings and frequent communications between us, i guess there are some feelings grow within two of us.Not long after that she broke up with her 'BF'. I shall say our relationship blooms after that. Things go quite well between us until 1 day , the day that I couldnt forget till today.
She asked me to call back while I am still in a camp. I gave her a call back immediately during break time. She was sobbing when she answered the call, being someone who is totally in love with I ask her whats wrong, then she replied
"Why do you have to lie to me ? why do you wanna be playboy ? why you didnt tell me you having a relationship with *** ? , why do you have to hurt me like that ?"I was in total shocked and out of words , then I take a deep breath and answer her
" When did I lie to you ? what happened ? what have I done ?" and she replied
"You lie to me when you say you love me , why do you lie to me ?"I said
" Since when I lie to you ? I really love you " and tears begin to drop to my cheeks.
Then she said
"People been telling me that you are in a relationship with *** and you are double timing me"My reply was
" I never lie to you and I really love you, you rather listen to rumours than to believe in me ?"She said
"I dont know who to trust anymore?" and she begin to cry
I replied
"You can trust me, I really love you"She said
" Don't call me anymore, I don't wish to talk to you anymore, do not call me again" and then she hang up on me.
I was speechless and totally devastated. I try to call back a few times but my calls went unanswered.I was left alone and I shed tears at that time.
To cut my story short, our relationship went downhill from there. My explanations went awry, not long after that I heard that she went back together with her ex. Thats the stody then last time i shed my tears. Till today I still dont understand why she doesnt believe me, is it because I am not trustworthy or is it her heart never left that person and she uses this an excuse to make her feel better.
It is unknown mystery till today so it will be another unanswered questions in my life.
The reason I am writing this out is just simply for ranting and no other reason.
Labels: Relationship
Ways to move on from the past
In the search for love, it's all too easy to get sidetracked by bad dates, broken hearts, and bad love habits. And while bad dates and broken hearts are part of the dating journey toward happily-ever-after, bad love habits can and should be avoided at all costs.
So what's a bad love habit? Any dysfunctional, destructive, difficult belief or habit you have towards love and relationships that's keeping you from finding, attracting, and/or maintaining a healthy relationship. The following are some common bad dating beliefs:
- You choose potential partners who are incapable of meeting your emotional needs.
- You think love has to be difficult, painful, and/or hard.
- You think your potential partner is going to fix whatever you don't like about yourself or your life.
- You believe time is running out on your search for love and/or your chance to have children.
If any of the above sound familiar, don't worry. You're not a lost cause. In fact, with a little time and effort, you can turn things around! What follows are five simple and effective tips and techniques geared toward helping you break free of limiting relationship beliefs and bad dating habits. Practiced over time, you can and will kick any bad dating habit -- for good!
1. Identify the dating traps you're stuck in
Think you've got to miraculously solve all your problems before you'll be deserving of love? Convinced there are no good "ones" left? Or do you believe that your perfect partner will one day swoop in and magically save you from your life? If any or all of the above sound familiar, chances are good that you suffer from some common dating traps. In order to become a successful single, you first need to free yourself from these traps. Acknowledging the traps you're stuck in is the first step. Next, you've got to break free of these traps, as well as any other limiting or destructive beliefs that are keeping you stuck. To find out how, keep reading.
2. Assess your excess baggage
Next, it's important to get honest with yourself about what you might be lugging around with you on dates (or in life in general). What are you holding onto that no longer serves you? Rejection, disappointment, betrayal? This is from your past, not your present or future. If you've got negative or destructive beliefs or fears weighing you down, you owe it to yourself to dump that excess baggage!
3. Dump your excess baggage
In order to have a happily ever after future, you have to first believe you deserve finding a mate. Gather those painful memories, that chip on your shoulder, any residual anger from past relationship experiences, and tell them they've got to go. Thank them for the lessons you've learned and tell them that it's now time for you to stand on your own two feet. In your mind's eye, give them the heave-ho! Next, start visualizing the kind of life you want to have, complete with your dream job, perfect partner, ideal home, etc. By getting clear about what you want, you give yourself permission to attract it.
4. Stop putting off your life and/or personal happiness
So many of us put off personal happiness waiting for some external result like "I'll be happy when I lose weight, when I pay off my debts, when I get a better job." The truth is, you deserve to enjoy your fabulously imperfect life right this very minute! When you stop putting off happiness, you start attracting happy people, healthy relationships, exciting and new opportunities. Instead of postponing joy until something external happens, today's the day to start celebrating the joy in your everyday life.
5. Embrace a new dating vocabulary
Now that you're baggage light and dating-trap free, it's time to introduce a new vocabulary to your dating belief system. Every morning and night for 30 days, practice the following exercise: Say to yourself "Love/dating/my ideal relationship is..." and then fill in the blank with the appropriate words (words like healthy, whole, loving, fun, etc.). By creating a new vocabulary for yourself, you may be surprised at how your outlook on dating and relationships changes, and as a result, you'll start attracting happier and healthier potential partners. Love that!
So there you have it -- five simple dating tips and techniques to help you break free of limiting relationship beliefs and bad love habits. May you learn them, love them, live them. In doing so, you just may fall in love with your life all over again, not to mention exponentially increase your chances of future relationship success.
Good luck and happy dating!
Labels: Relationship
How men changed after marriage
The Love Word:
After 6 weeks : I looo-ve you, I love you, I love you
After 6 months : Of course I love you
After 6 years : GOD, if I didn't love you , then why did I marry you ?
Back from Work:
After 6 weeks : Honey, I'm home !
After 6 months : I'm BACK
After 6 years : Have you cooked yet ?
Phone Ringing:
After 6 weeks : Baby , somebody wants you on the phone
After 6 months : Here , it's for you
After 6 years : ANSWER THE PHONE, DAM IT !!!
Cooking:
After 6 weeks : I never knew food could taste so good !
After 6 months : What are we having for dinner tonight ?
After 6 years : DUMPLING AGAIN ??
New Dress:
After 6 weeks : Wow, you look like an angel in that dress.
After 6 months : You brought a new dress again ?
After 6 years : How much did THAT cost me ?
TV:
After 6 weeks : Baby , what would you like us to watch tonight ?
After 6 months : I like this movie.
After 6 years : I'm going to watch PIRATES play, if you're not in the mood , go to bed, I can stay up by myself !
Making Love:
After 6 weeks : Baby, I want you tonight
After 6 months : Lets make another baby, my mum just called !!!
After 6 years : Please MOVE over to your side, I'm suffocating here !!!!
Well well well , how true is those situations ? anyone who have married for 6 years mind to share with me your personal experience ?
Labels: Relationship
Friendship come in Half a Dozen
Well a friend of my complained that in my blog I write everything except for things thats about me. To be honest my life at the moment quite dull as I m just waiting for that DAY to come before I leave for Manchester. Here I would like to take an opportunity to share with you ppl about the friends that I had in my life. Of course all this years I have met alot of people and if I have my chance I would like to write about every single one of them. This group of friends I been mixing very closely for the past 2 years , we are like "
lok kor chi tau mong" even though we do have our own life but most of the time we are together through thicks and thins or should I say through fats and thins. 6 of us are so different and so alike that the same time. I m very glad that I bumped into this few ppl at this junction of my life.
Name :
Jim Teoh Chia ErnCodename :
The Flirter
Status :
Complicated Location :
Newcastle , AustraliaWiener size :
LargeBreast size :
A cupI hardly know this guy till I m in F6 when we were in the same class, before that I just Hi and Bye with him when we met and all I know about him back then was his dad owns Lee Hoe but now i know everything about him *grins* . Like what his code name says he is the Flirter in our group even though he always defence himself by saying " I m just being friendly" but all of us in the group knows you flirt alot Jim but is ok because you dont have any ill intention. He flirts with style mind you. I had some serious controversy with him during F6 just because of a girl , we even " fang min" during that time, looking back at those time I felt I m so silly because no matter how i put it I m the one at fault . I m really sorry about that and I m glad that incident didnt tear us apart instead it brings us closer. We did alot of crazy things together and spending plenty of time together which I enjoy it. We even hop into a bus and went to KL just to attend a workshop on "How to Run a Restaurant" that quit costly and we were the youngest participant over there back then we were just 18 years old and our names and interview even came out in Star newspaper ,BUSINESS SECTION !!! Jim still remembers what you say during that time ? His easy going personality makes him "yang kin yan ngoi , ceh kin ceh coi" even I m jealous at times but thats Jim for you. I would like to thank you for our friendship and all those wonderful times together.
Name :
Teh See KhoonCodename :
The MenaceStatus :
In a relationshipLocation :
Penang, MalaysiaWiener size :
He claim that it is large but very doubtful
Breast size :
B cup I know See Khoon since we were F1 I think . He is always the person you look for when some michevious things happend. He is very creative mind you, he can come out with alot of crazy ideas just to pull a prank on ppl. Well he get to taste his own medicine when during a camp in Brother's Bungalow he was stripped naked and hang to a pole during a wet and windy night, how does that feel ? Thats how he get his codename The Menace because he likes to get himself into trouble. See Khoon showed me places to get good food and he is literally my partner in crime when comes to food and he really can eat alot, much more compared to me , he always like to shoot me " you ah nice to see nia but hor cannot use mia, eat a little already tarik hand brake". Once mentioned about See Khoon the first thing come into ppl mind is TROUBLE. He is a LEGEND in the league of trouble making. He had torn Muet script, he had argued with teachers, he had stolen life jacket from plane, he had ppl gang banged , he had treat ppl eat disgusting stuff but of all thing his most famous trick is to ............................................................................................. during a sch trip. The details of his most famous act are not proper to be posted in the blog ,thats how extreme it is. Anyhow See Khoon thank you for everything and I really mean EVERYTHING and I hope you shall and will forgive for all those not so nice moments of me when we were together.
Name :
Winson Tan Wei YeongCodename :
The Joker
Status :
Single and Available
Location :
Tasmania , AustraliaWiener size :
XTRA large (handle with care)
Breast size :
C cupWei Yeong, I think I know you since we were F1 but at that time we are not that close. We only get intimate after I finished my F6 when we spends plenty of time together and I really mean PLENTY . He is the Joker in our group , he practically can make extremely funny jokes on anything at anytime and he is natural with it. Always make of us laugh till we are out of breath. He is the one that introduce us to one of our lepaking spot , Burger stall by the Jelutong post office , they definately serve of the best burger around. He is the guy that accompany me the most, the reason are simple because we are the only 2 person in our group without girlfriend so I guess that make us a lonely couple. Haha. I dont know why he dont have a GF ,I mean he is a marvelous guy and damn great person to be with. I m sure whoever be with him will definately have a time of her life. Oh yea, he has damn good memory on things and events , I mean HELL OF MEMORY , he can remember clearly what you said, what happened, what you wear and even how many rice you have eaten, thats COOL right ? So most of us cant actually lie in front of him because he remember it all. To all the girls out there that want his contact feel free to ask from me, I m more than glad to give and introduce to you such great guy. Yeong thanks for everything and I sincerely hope that you will finish off what you started with style and enjoy your life in Australia, is freaking Australia after all, you have snow,kangaroo,hot asian australian chicks and plenty of booze and weeds over there.
Name :
Yeoh Keng LiangCodename:
The ShooterStatus :
In a relationshipLocation :
Penang , MalaysiaWiener size :
Medium largeBreast size :
AA cup (only 2 mosquitoes bites can be seen)He is my classmate for quite alot of years from F1 till F5 . A very quiet and timid person but when he shoot at you is RIGHT ON the spot and kill you instantly. He hardly speaks but when he speaks is like shooting an arrow through you and burn it. He is quite humourous by saying things out of topic and from nowhere. One thing we will always remember him is that he like to ask string of questions such as when asking him out he will ask "Go where ah ?" then "What time going ?" , "Go there do what ah ?" "There got what so special ?" "Who else going ah?" after asking you all those question and you reply him then he will tell you this
" Like that ah , I dont feel like going la" Pek Chek lo...No matter what he is a very good person and a very caring BF. He will help you out when you need him without asking much question, thats strange huh since he is the type like to ask alot of question. He always claimed that he is one always eat "dead cat" no matter what happen but I dont think so cause I m the one who always eat "dead cat" . Oh yea when he play football time you can pek chek till die because he will carry and dribble the ball VERY slowly like slow motion like that. Anyway Bu thanks alot for everything and hope you will be a very famous and honourable lawyer one day.
Name :
Lau Soon PingCodename : The Playboy/ PPK KingStatus :
UnknownLocation :
Penang , MalaysiaWiener size :
Medium largeBreast size :
AA cup (Mosquitoes bites too)Mr.Lau here is a very famous Playboy I would say he is the different type of Playboy because he really loves the girl that he go after too but the problem is that he simply loves QUITE alot of girls. I have to admit he really treats the person he loves very well and really care for them. Get close with him cause we stays nearby and we were classmate in F6 but I think he is the one that spend the least time with all of us because he is also known as PPK King aka Pang Poi Ki Ong , well we never blame him for PPKing us even though he always came out with lame excuse such as "My dad ask me buy newspaper", "I need to cut grass" , "My uncle wedding" , "My auntie just gave birth" , "My car just broke down", "My mum birthday" and etc, seriously I do think he can write a book on "1001 Excuses for PPK" and I m sure he can come out with the 1001 excuses. Ping we knew it when you give excuse but we dont mind because we know you have alot of girls that you need to attend to so we do understand your situation. Too bad I never be able to learn anything from him in caring and loving girls thats why till today I never had any GF *sigh*. Ping is a family man, to him no matter what family must come first and I really respect you for that. Well thanks for everything Ping even though you never introduce any girl to me but is ok because I would never ever able to take care of them like you do. Oh yea , he is against Pre-Marital SEX , so girls that wanna get lucky with him before marriage is totally out of question.
Name :
Saw Liang WeiCodename :
The FuckerStatus : Single , Available and FUCKING desperate ..haha
Location :
Penang , Msia soon Manchester, UK
Wiener size :
Discreet but suspected smallBreast size :
DD cup (DD = Double difficulty)
Thats me just in case you don't know. I have nothing to write about myself so I just post up my picture. Why my codename is The Fucker ? because I fuck at everything.
Ps. All the postings above are simply my opinion so please dont not let it effect your judgement on them when you get to know them but no matter what they are a bunch of cool and great ppl to hang around with and I bet my last dollar on it.Labels: Relationship
Edison & Me
NO NO NO !!! When my title says
Edison & Me please dont expect raunchy pictures of me with this guy who made himself famous by screwing around and I mean technically SCREWING around. Well I dont think he will be interested with me after SCREWING so many famous Hong Kong stars eventhough I have
BIGGER upper
CHEST compared to
all of them, eh wait how would I know since I
NEVER see any of his picture that causes uproar in Hong Kong so please ah I just think my upper chest are bigger than the heroine in his collection of photos . It is after all
Edison Chen photo scandal. I would like to say again I
NEVER see any of those photos so please
DO NOT ask from me any of the photos but I think you can easily obtain it by
googling it. Haha.
Ok enough with my craps and outdated news of this Edison Chen. Now the Edison I m going to talk about is a highly respected icon in the world that is
Thomas Alva Edison , yes he is the guy who invented the long lasting and practical electric light bulb and he look like this ...
So what about him that I wanna talk about ? Only one thing ,
WE HAVE ALOT IN COMMON and why would I say that even though there are hardly any familiarity between me and him , simply because of this
quote of his when he tried inventing light bulb ...
"I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work" by Thomas A.Edison
He found 10,000 ways that won't work it creating electric light bulb and I, proudly says that I found 10,001 ways that won't work when going after a girl. Sigh , I wouldnt want to admit this but after so many years of trying I NEVER had anyone that I can consider or introduce to my friend as my GIRLFRIEND . Seriously how can I be single after so many years ? simply because I followed Thomas Edison footsteps in finding 10,001 ways that won't work when going after a girl.
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